High #12

There are birds flying back and forth while a stiff wooden cuckoo clock man is wearing a familiar pattern on the carpet as he is following the bird back and forth. This vision seems to go on for hours when in reality it is only minutes. It is slow moving almost like watching an AVI frame by frame. In the corner there is a manger scene, A swing set scale size manger scene, like a giant Christmas decoration. The wooden frame is strung with a string of chili pepper lights. In my head the word sacrilege plays over and over like a broken record. Time is rampant. In reality it is to my guestimation 3:30 p.m., (actual time is around two p.m.) My other reality tells me it is 5 p.m. The fantasy in my head makes me feel it is two days after Christmas around 10:30 in the morning. I can tell the truth from the time hallucination and the misplaced fantasy of time from the emotion inside that brings me a false state of time placement. I am seeing double visions, Reality which I haven't lost complete grip on and the clear marker drawn transparency that is overlaying my perception of the real. This double overlay of reality V's imagination allows me to create my own outcome, as if lucid dreaming but I am awake. I can create without moving. I can make things appear the way I want or I can let my past reflect what the images tell me. They often bring me back to sights, smells and visions I have experienced before at some time. I felt comfortable where I was although I was amongst people I have known less then 2 weeks and in a house that was foreign to me.